What to do in a place
where I didn’t choose to be? Where all I do is focused on getting away as
quickly as possible. To the place I had planned to be.
I want to sleep in a
city where I don’t want to wake up. Sleep, and wake up to have gotten over the
absurdity of having travelled back to Hong Kong, just hours after I had left
it. Sleep, which I was unable to do on the plane, because I was weeping out my
anger, frustration and disbelief.
He was flipping through
the pages. Back and forth. “Where is your visa?” – “I thought I didn’t need
one.” Amazing how the brain functions, how slow it can be in catching up with
reality – at this point, I was still completely calm.
Lying on a hotel bed
that could be anywhere, trying to digest the irony of having been on Indian
ground already, only to be deported back to where I came from. On the very next
flight. I was so illegal that the plane was not allowed to take off until I was
on board. Walking down the aisle to my seat, I felt all eyes on me. Sorry
folks, I myself would have preferred to have you leave without me.
More and more people
come, all wearing uniforms. Blue ones for the immigration guys, red ones for
the airline folks. My passport is handed from one to the next, the red lady is
constantly speaking into her cell phone, somebody is producing official papesr.
Somebody should have produced an official paper for me before, and should have
glued it into my passport. That’s the mistake I made.
I was so illegal that
the airline got fined for bringing me into the country. Just days before, I had
been the co-organizer of an international workshop with 100 participants. That’s
the democracy of bureaucracy, it really doesn’t matter who you are (I didn’t
try to bribe the officers…).
What, you didn’t know
that India was kicked out of Schengen, after they left the Euro zone?
Succeeding in at least smirking on the jokes and cheer-ups that my friends send
over email. The marching orders for this kind of situation are clear: Make the
best out of it. I know. I will. But not yet today. Hong Kong is out there, but
I refuse to see it at the moment.
And of course today
happens to be a Sunday, so the Indian consulate is closed. Tomorrow happens to
be Dragonboat Day – a public holiday.
Two days later, I have
45 minutes to spend outside of my tiny guesthouse room, before I have to be
back because the consulate MIGHT call any time after 10. Wandering up and down
the street, being the only one without a purpose amidst waves of people rushing
to work or wherever it is they are going. At the “Café des Arts” (A chain
breakfast restaurant, where machine people with face masks serve scrambled
eggs, grey coffee and something like sausages, with an incredible efficiency),
I stare at a wall that has taglines such as “It’s a wonderful day”, “What a
beautiful world” and “Time of your life” written on it. Loneliness is creeping
in.
An elderly couple sits
down at my table. They have brought along their own yoghurts to complement the
mash on their plates. It feels good to be acknowledged with a smile.
There
was a happy ending to the story: After 3 days in Hong Kong, my visa got
cleared, and I did make it to India.
